It was a cold and winter night, and the wind blew against me as I ran out to my car for a late pick me up. I was on an urgent errand: Caffeine fix. Emergency Wendy’s run.
What time was it? 10:00pm and I’m not a happy camper. One would think at this time of night, I would be at my home…kissing my daughter good night, and catching up with my wife on the day’s events and such.
No such luck here, I’m working at a client site.
Seems like that is the prevailing topic running in my mind lately, always working. I’m getting tired of it. Work used to be fun…well…ok it still is, but this is different. Right now it seems like a chore. I’m hoping some changes that are happening at my primary job, ABTech, will fix some of these but I am under no illusion that they will fix them all. I think I need to pray more and focus on Him…whenever I feel myself slide like this I always notice that I’m not leaning on the Lord but some false sense of security. My how easy that is to slip back into. Anyway’s, back to the situation at hand.
I have a good friend and fellow co-worker, James, here to help me out and bounce idea’s off of him, but in the end it is looking grim. We started 9am this morning and as I write this, it is now approaching 10:15pm. I don’t like these nights unless I am prepared for them. In some cases I have been, others I don’t have that privilege. Something that should have taken 5 hours has now consumed more than 13.
I’m stressed, I’m tired, and I’m cranky. The only thing that is really keeping me alive right now are the really geeky jokes that James and I throw at each other and the good music by David Crowder (Yes, I have seen the light…thanks Matt!).
Big day tomorrow, might get a new car out of a deal that almost sounds too good to be true (Don’t worry, no stupid moves here…it has to be worth it or I’m walking), and the annual meeting at Sunset.
I think I’m going to ask my boss for a day off, I feel compelled to spend time with my family I’m neglecting.
UPDATE: I updated the post a couple days ago regarding the joke about “Good thing I don’t answer to God”. It implied that I had said this, but this was the answer received. This is what happens when I write a post @ 6am without coffee. Bleh!
Ξ October 25th, 2007 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Life |
I know I haven’t blogged any lately. Trust me, it’s not because I don’t have any content…I have plenty of content in my head and down on paper (well…e-paper…and at least partially written).
I received an email after making a joke to someone and the answer I got is the title of this post. Now granted, I really don’t know this person deeply, and again, this was made as a joke…but for some reason it just struck me.
I find that we sometimes are too concerned with the how of reaching people for Christ as opposed to actually putting forth the effort to reaching people for Christ.
Working with technology in ministry has always proven difficult for me. I want a direct result, something that I can put a number to, where I can say “Hey! I helped Jesus save x number of lives today…” but as you might have guessed, it’s kind of hard to do that in my ministry. I think it’s more assisting other ministries.
When I read that title, that response, I see failure. What’s worse is that I think it’s all on us. We as Christians/Christ Followers (I really don’t get the distinction, if there is any…) are losing. And frankly, I believe it’s because of a lack of trying. If we truly tried, put forth a good effort and actually worked in the effort as opposed to designing the effort I think we would be more effective. Don’t get me wrong, we need a good effective design, a campaign if you will, but I think we fall short on the implementation.
Just some randomness there. What are your thoughts? If you’re in ministry, how do you stay positive?
The other day was our niece, Lizzie’s, 3rd birthday! It’s amazing how time flies. We threw her a party at our house. It was a pretty calm party. It was ever so much fun though! The girls decided that we needed to make cupcakes. We had a blast making them and eating them. We also painted pumpkins earlier in the day. How much fun is pumpkin painting with TWO toddlers. Way too much fun…. The girls did really well though and they were so excited that we got to put the pumpkins outside for EVERYONE else in the neighborhood to see.
The best thing about Lizzie turning 3 and having her party- she is starting to REALLY smile. These few and far in between real smiles are so amazingly wonderful, and I truly give thanks to God that He has brought Lizzie into a happy place again in her life. Ok. Im trying to add pics. its not working. Ill try to add them later..
Today Zaeda was in our car in her carseat singing songs. This is a pretty normal occurance, she begins to sing just as we begin to drive, and it gets louder the longer we are in the car. It’s pretty cool.
Anyways. Zaeda was singing A-B-C-D- and then she put her hand to her face…thinking thinking…. and she said ” I know that sound.” and she looked around for a minute and she smiled ( I was watching in the rearview mirror- yes I know.. bad driving.. but hey.) and she started to sing “Twinkle Twinkle little star” and then she put her hand to her face again and said.. ” Yep I know that sound” and started singing “baa baa black sheep” she kept repeating that the songs sounded the same. It was pretty cool. This is the first time I have ever heard her make a musical connection like that. We talked for a while about how a lot of sounds have the same notes and same sound to them but that people put different words with them. Zaeda was thrilled to make this discovery. Pretty cool at two years old.
Ξ October 9th, 2007 | → 6 Comments | ∇ Life |
I have it too good. Seriously, I sometimes take for granted the stuff I have. Ok…not sometimes, most of the time. This weekend though really put into perspective what life can be like: Fun.
Simply put, I value my relationship with Matt and Jay very much. I’m not to sure why since they are really way bit older than me but Mel and I were talking about this recently. We relate more with people older than us rather than our age (we’re both 25, and I am older…no matter what Melanie says).
The hang time with these guys was both uplifting and encouraging. I will probably post about our trip to Magic Mountain in a bit, but I will leave you with a little treat. Want to know what kind of fun we had? This type…
Video: Jay’s Bathroom Experience
Now I have proof. For those of you who know me a bit better, I’m into the whole military thing. I like to take a holistic view of the situation and our capabilities against certain struggles. I tend to over analyze sometimes, but in this regard I was right.
So most people know about an Israeli air strike against Syria a few weeks ago. Lots of people don’t know the reason for it though, all assuming it was to get rid of “Nuclear Equipment”. Sure, the Syrians didn’t say anything and that rose my suspicions as there was something rather damaging in the matter. Most people concluded there was something there, as do I.
But was that the purpose of this attack?
People thought it was…I did not however. Why?
Again, big picture here. Syria had purchased anti-air weapon systems from Russia recently and it was rather advanced. Iran has done the same. I was kind of worried about how the Pentagon was going to neutralize this obstacle as Russian weapon systems are pretty good, especially their anti-air systems. With regard to the link below, I find comfort in the fact that as it stands right now, we are able to defeat it.
http://www.worldtribune.com/worldtribune/WTARC/2007/me_israel_10_05.asp
Love the quote at the end: “Syria is shamed and silent. Iran is freaking out in panic. Defenseless enemies are fun”.
Yes…yes they are.
I have a good friend and fellow co-worker, James, here to help me out and bounce idea’s off of him, but in the end it is looking grim. We started 9am this morning and as I write this, it is now approaching 10:15pm. I don’t like these nights unless I am prepared for them. In some cases I have been, others I don’t have that privilege. Something that should have taken 5 hours has now consumed more than 13.